An attempt
Its been a while since I have updated. There are adjustments to my life and I have yet to figure where I am heading.
It wasnt an easy journey but hey who says life is going to be easy anyway. Time again and again it is easier to just say 'I give up', then to persevere and be so unsure of the outcomes.
Realise that life is full of risks. Calculated or not its a gamble on what is to be expected. Sometimes if you are lucky you get away victorious. If otherwise, this is where you just got to pick up the pieces and move on.
I am moving on. At least this is what I want to believe. But sleeping at night has become a chore instead of a necessity and on those nights when I was blessed with deep sleep I am taunted by all the questions, I dont have answers to. I hope and I pray that one day I will be victorious. Its my war, a battle I dont have a choice but win.
However, I am always grateful, thankful and most touched by all the encouragement, support and strong motivation I received from all. My wonderful family who are indirect victims too. My beautifl F15 who always believe in me and respected my every decision. Though always far, knowing they are always there comfort me deep within. My uncles, aunties and most important cuzzins... Guys I know you knew, but thank you so much for not judging me. Your silence gave me ease to move on. I was so worried on how I could face all of you,anguished and ashamed I was resigned to cast myself away from all of you. But I learnt that I cant punish myself for long. And I am oh so glad you cuzzins are so supportive. Indirectly you gave me reason to smile and to believe in me again. Thank you.
I have made decisions to make my life as fulfilling as possible. I have enrolled in UNISIM for a Bachelor Degree in Counselling and class will begin in July 08. I have picked up a new hobby; Digital Photography. I shall from now onwards dedicate my Blog specially for my photo journalism. Apologies if its not as pleasing to the eye. I am still an amateur.
Life is like a sunset, it fills you with hope of tomorrow ensuring you that today is already over.
It wasnt an easy journey but hey who says life is going to be easy anyway. Time again and again it is easier to just say 'I give up', then to persevere and be so unsure of the outcomes.
Realise that life is full of risks. Calculated or not its a gamble on what is to be expected. Sometimes if you are lucky you get away victorious. If otherwise, this is where you just got to pick up the pieces and move on.
I am moving on. At least this is what I want to believe. But sleeping at night has become a chore instead of a necessity and on those nights when I was blessed with deep sleep I am taunted by all the questions, I dont have answers to. I hope and I pray that one day I will be victorious. Its my war, a battle I dont have a choice but win.
However, I am always grateful, thankful and most touched by all the encouragement, support and strong motivation I received from all. My wonderful family who are indirect victims too. My beautifl F15 who always believe in me and respected my every decision. Though always far, knowing they are always there comfort me deep within. My uncles, aunties and most important cuzzins... Guys I know you knew, but thank you so much for not judging me. Your silence gave me ease to move on. I was so worried on how I could face all of you,anguished and ashamed I was resigned to cast myself away from all of you. But I learnt that I cant punish myself for long. And I am oh so glad you cuzzins are so supportive. Indirectly you gave me reason to smile and to believe in me again. Thank you.
I have made decisions to make my life as fulfilling as possible. I have enrolled in UNISIM for a Bachelor Degree in Counselling and class will begin in July 08. I have picked up a new hobby; Digital Photography. I shall from now onwards dedicate my Blog specially for my photo journalism. Apologies if its not as pleasing to the eye. I am still an amateur.
Life is like a sunset, it fills you with hope of tomorrow ensuring you that today is already over.
This sunset was captured above a field in Bedok reservoir.
posted by il@h at 9:33 pm
1 Comments:
You just call out my name and you know wherever I am... I'll come running to see you again... Don't you know that Winter spring summer or fall... All you've got to do is call... And I'll be there, yes I will... You've got a friend...
*hugs* It astounds me how you managed to stand tall & get thru this... Wa respek, u beb! ;)
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